A little backstory:

I am a recovered heroin addict, and I have always struggled with my weight. I have been an addict for 10 years, I'm 26 now, and have essentially accomplished very little in my life as a result. I used to be a fairly large cocaine distributor (200k$CAD a month in product) about 6 years ago, and was since I was 19 having dealt drugs in a smaller way since I started using at 16. I have struggled with my sobriety for the past 3 years since entering treatment; there have been periods of 3 months, 9 months of sobriety at times, but never for the right reasons. One small, albeit not insignificant reason I would continue using, is that heroin makes it easy to not eat, and easy to keep weight off.

On October 3rd 2017, my fiance, my partner in crime, my ultimate enabler left me; I was devastated. Within a month I had started a relationship with a girl I met on tinder who was younger than me, a virgin when we met, never having touched alcohol or drugs. Within a month we were getting drunk every weekend, and she was watching me shoot up daily.

Fast forward to January; I decided I had to get sober. In April I realized I could no longer be with this woman, and that things had to end, so on April 29th I left.

On the first of May I decided to start Keto, and this is when everything changed. Since starting I've gone from 256lbs, to 233lbs, but the biggest difference is in my head. I have slept for 10 hrs a night for the past half a decade at least; I wake up, and immediately go back to sleep 3, 4, 5 times because being awake is pain. Life is pain. However since making this change, I get up at 630am-730am. I have started taking computer science through Duke University, I work out, I sleep 6 hours a night because the moment I open my eyes, I am beyond excited for the day.

I have never been this happy in my life, to be completely honest, I didn't know it was possible. Drugs are the only metric by which I understand the comparison of "happiness", but the comparison falls down immediately. This is nothing like anything I've ever experienced, I want my sobriety because being sober is now the happiest I've ever been. I want to be present, I want to be awake, I want to live because life is amazing.

I haven't read a book in 13 years, and yesterday I purchase 12 Steps for Life by Jordan B. Peterson, and it's an amazing book. If you don't know him you should check him out, especially if you are a young male, ESPECIALLY if you are having issues organizing (or even fucking starting) your life. His YouTube videos helped me out in a way I can't explain, and I am forever grateful to him.

I understand a lot of this post is not necessarily keto related, but it was the bed rock I built everything, and is a huge part of why I've now met an amazing woman who is a recovered alcoholic 1.5 years sober. It's the first supportive, healthy person I've ever had in my life, I never knew I could be happy and healthy in this way and now I am. Shes also now on keto, and shes doing incredibly well.

I've lurked here since I started, but now that things are really working for me, I figured I would make a post about how far I've come, and exactly how significantly your diet can turn your life around. Things are amazing now, and I'm never going back.

Good luck guys, hope the best for you <3

**EDIT**

First off, I want to thank you all for the wave of support and messages I've received!

A few comments have been made that have brought up a few unanswered points in this story that can absolutely be interpreted as negative, especially portions relating to the young lady I met on Tinder, I'll address this and other questions in this edit.

For starters, let's call this young girl "A"

A is 24 y/o, not underage, and I can absolutely see how this story may have seemed to leave her in a bad position. A and I, did not drink for the last month a half we were together, once I had been sober for a while I just saw it as another extension of my own addiction issues, regardless of the fact that my problem was never with alcohol. While I was absolutely the driving force behind the drinking, she was very curious about sex and drinking, and all these things she had never been around before. I was happy to have someone who would drink with me (while I would have NEVER let her use the substances I did), and also a part of me was happy to be able to expose her to it in a way where at least I knew I had no ill intentions regarding her. I say that with the understanding that shooting heroin around her was completely unacceptable, and while I may have been an active addict, I have to be accountable to myself.

A doesn't have that much of a person interest in continuing drinking, or really have a reasonable outlet to do so without me. Also to be clear, I have not cut her out of my life; when I left, I told her I would always be here for her and that if she needed to talk I was never going to turn my back on her, but that this relationship was toxic for both of us, and my opposition to ending it was coming purely from a place of fear and weakness.

She is doing well right now, I know shes sad about the relationship ending, but it was bad for both of us, and we're both going to better off now. For example, shes still in wow my guild =D

To address the thing about Duke, yes as one user posted it is an extension course through Duke. I still had to apply to Duke, and am "technically" a Duke student, but I am not attending the University in person, Duke administrates the course online.

And as far as drug dealing being "cool". Sure I guess TV makes it look glamorous, but it took everything away from me, I've done things to people I'm going to have to live with for the rest of my life, and I don't have heroin to hide behind anymore. I certainly didn't mean to appear to be bragging, maybe I don't think of it that way because to me this shit is embarrassing. For quite a long time I hated going out in public because I didn't feel like I belonged with normal people, I would avoid children because I thought my mere presence was inappropriate.

I hope this answers any questions, Im willing to answer any other.

Oh and yes, I intend on buying many more books! I just had to start somewhere 😀


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